Sunday, August 30, 2015

"Spending" time.

My niece has cancer.
Not just one form of cancer.
Michele has colon cancer, it's in her liver, spine, and hip.
She's been dealing with all of it for two years.
Michele has a five year old son, and three year old daughter.

There have been chemo treatments, radiation beads, failed treatments, and more chemo......all to give Michele more "time" with her children.
Most of her time has been spent dealing with side effects from medications.  Some of the effects have been devastating.
All Michele wanted was more time.
Time for holding hands, giving hugs, reading books, riding bikes, chasing butterflies, and hearing the laughter of her children.
Her days have been filled with doctor appointments, tests, treatments, feeling sick, tired, and waiting for results.
Michele has cherished the precious, few moments she has been able to spend time with Brayden and Layla.
She has never complained. Never asked, "why me?"
Everything Michele has endured has been for her beloved babies. 
She is a remarkable young woman.

The cancer has spread......from the hip, down her leg.
Around the liver, and into the lymph nodes.
In the esophagus, and chest.
Further down the spine.
Michele is losing fluid through the skin, and has lesions on the outside of the body.
Her blood pressure drops dangerously low, and also her heart-rate.
She receives blood because of low counts.
We went to see her on Friday.
Not one time did she complain.
She drifted in and out....but was as sweet as ever when she did speak.
Her children were there.....just being normal kids. 
Filling up her "time".
What is it that you need to fill up your time with?
You never know how much you have really think before you answer.


  1. Debbie,
    Oh how I wept reading this, throughout my years of loving family members and friends I have often experienced the deep despair of unsumountabke illness during the whole time sending prayers sent up to God... pleading, bargaining, asking for a miracle ... Seldom occurs but yet we ask, hope and pray. There's always a meaning, a message from up above ... perhaps it's only to embrace in love, surrender to the divine and leave the promise of never ending love behind. Debbie I truly didn't answer in haste, for I believe living this many times has guided me to my belief. I send prayers and love.
    candle lite I too pray for a miracle.
    Sending love,

  2. Good Morning Debbie
    Well that was a very hard post to read without crying. I have been praying for your sweet niece and the whole family. I can't imagine what your family is going through.
    My time is always spent with my family, I cherish every second of every day with them.
    I will continue to pray ***

  3. Time is a precious commodity for sure. None of us knows just how much time we'll have. When I hear people complain, I wish they were more aware of what a gift it is. I'll be praying for your niece and the family. (((Hugs)))

  4. I' ll be praying for her and her family with all of my love.

  5. Dear Debbie, Time is so precious. My prayers will be with your niece and her sweet little family as the days move forward. I pray God brings peace and comfort and healing!!
    Sending love your way. cm

  6. How very sad that your niece is going through this and even worse, that she has little ones still:( Some years ago, my co-workers brother died of colon cancer, he was only 32 and her father had died from it at 42.

    I honestly don't know how I'd spend my time. I would just want my kids to know I'd had a good life and that they've been the most wonderful blessing and that I'd be watching over them:)

  7. I simply can't describe the utter sadness and dread I felt as I read each sentence in your post. This dear girl...I wish her peace, love, prayers and pain free days. And bless her sweet children and all the members of her family and friends as they make her feel loved and secure. We can only pray at this point.

    Sending so much love to you, Debbie, during this truly difficult time. I wish I were there to talk and hold your hand.

    Jane xxx

  8. Oh Debbie, I am so sorry about your niece! Words just aren't adequate. My heart goes out to you all. I can't even imagine what that must be like for her young children and husband. I am praying for them, and for you too of course. Praying that the Lord gives you peace in the coming days. Can you imagine how even more difficult it would be if it were not for our faith. I hope you can find a bit of comfort. Sending you a really big hug.
    love you

  9. Sending prayers for your niece and her family! Losing a loved one is life altering, I know! Believing God for peace! Blessings, Cindy

  10. Dearest Debbie, I am so sorry to hear this news; I am so glad that she has strived to have more time with her precious children. I can only say that I am not sure if I would not be complaining or pleading with my Lord. I just feel so sad and I want you to know I am truly sorry for all the family that will be forever touched through this. I will pray and count my days once again as blessings from my Lord! Every day truly is a gift to her and each of us...
    Sending a hug and prayers, xoxo Roxy

  11. This is sad. I hate cancer and what it does to people. Praying for your family Debbie.

  12. This is sad. I hate cancer and what it does to people. Praying for your family Debbie.


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